She wants to tell him things that he should’ve known weeks ago, but she can’t. In the document, the words are there but they lack the will to be used.

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Ah, I'm so sorry for the inactivity lately, but a lot of things have been happening. The first news has to be about BTL--I'm terribly sorry, but it'll have to go on haitus for a bit. I've been forcing myself to work on it lately, but there is no inspiration or motivation for me to go on further. No worries, though! I definitely DO want to do this, it's just that with all the work I've been given lately, I can't. I will definitely come back to this and finish this! That is my goal and dream~! Please look forward to it! -quick bow-


I really want to draw stuff, original stuff and fan-based stuff! Comment down below what anime/manga you like with a quicky summary and I might like it(provided that the summary is appealing). Heck, add in what character(s) you like! If you have any original characters that you like or something, send them in too. (Please note that some may not be accepted--This is not because your character is not creative or anything. It is of my personal preference or feelings.)Please contribute! I would love to have something to start on as a base! This would be a great way for me to improve overall.


April 6th, I bought a chubby, adorable hamster named Tukutz. He was so lazy and loved to cuddle his roommates so constantly, that he was perfect. I bought him because he was just like me. (Pfft!) Of course, before then, I had prepared his cage and everything.. When I first left his box (that the store provided me with to carry him home) in his cage, he was so frightened. He placed one tiny paw near the entrance, but then froze for the next minutes. Afraid that he would get a heart attack or something, I gently slid him out of the box and he looked around with a curiousity that amused me. Through the tubes he went, on the wheel, off the wheel, tubes, hideout, tubes, on the wheel, off the wheel, and then just stuffed some litter into his pouches. it was so adorable that I couldn't stop watching him. He was just so adorable that I disobeyed what experts online had been saying for years. The night of the first day, I touched him a bit and the day after that, I kept him in the palms of my cupped hands. Usually, the hamsters should be left alone to cope with their new environment for 3 days, but I couldn't stop myself. I thought it was fine. After all, there was no sign of aggression or fear. He was curious. The two weeks after that, I made sure to clean his cage, play with him everyday, and sleep next to his cage to familiarize my smell. I made little progress. Sure, he wouldn't run away when I slip my hand into the cage, but he would still fidget around in my hands. April 17th, I woke up at 3AM to a scratching sound and immiedately looked inside Tukutz's cage. It was empty from above, so I assumed he was asleep. I checked the time and noticed how odd it was. Hamsters are nocturnal and they stay up from usually 10PM to 6AM. I've always left the top wire entrance open for quick entry, so I ignored that. I rummaged around and I litterally looked in every nook and cranny. He was nowhere to be found. Panicking, I searched around my room, but then it was time to go to school. (Damn!) I left all different kinds of food and snacks around my room to lure it out and back into its cage.. but nothing has been working lately.

It's the 21th now and I'm severely agitated. I can't think properly, I can't eat, and I certainly can't smile. Everyday, I'm worrying about Tukutz. During the wee hours of the day, I'm waiting for any clue, any signs that he's alive out there, in my house. During school, I'm drawing little hamsters on my notebooks and I can't pay attention in class. My grades are failing (Not.. Failing exactly, but it's a big difference from my usual grades. It's called asian fail. xDD) and my friends are leaving me, bit by bit. I'm sure that if I find Tukutz dead somewhere, I would fall to pieces. He was and IS the first pet I was ever serious about. (Sounds like a relationship. D: ) To lose him, would mean I would never... .. never be 'happy' again.

Tonight, I searched some methods to find him. Some have found their hamsters (Hamsters are escape artists) weeks, and even months after their escapade, so I'm waiting. I'm a little happy about those news.. but I'm also afraid. How long is too long?


Friends/People at school: Please bear with me. I'm terribly sorry you have to deal with this side of me. I'm just very irritated and scared. Listen to me once in a while, if it's okay with you. I know it's annoying to have to, but it would ease some of my pains.

People outside of school: I know I've left some things out for a long time, but also.. please bear with me. I hope to recover soon, or better yet find Tukutz, but I'm going to try my best to walk forward.


Thank you for watching and looking out for me so faithfully! I am very grateful and I hope to live up to your expectations! -bow-


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Activity/What To Do:

~BTL: Up to page 3 out of 5-6
For BTL, I'm going to update them here in splurts, so I'll leave you at a cliffhanger at each one. Please wait faithfully for a bit more !
~New original characters
To be scanned, edited, then uploaded
~Yoji(Loveless) cosplay
I'm still working on it for AN09 ^^' Oh boy..
~ATs from rollerblades
Anybody have any idea how to attach two 100mm wheels to the frame of the rollerblades without the gap inbetween so that it'll look a little less akward? Also, are there any wheels larger than 100mm? D:



Quote of the Day:

"....I always want to try my best, and if I do that then I have nothing to regret... There's no use sweating over it, only accept it and work harder next time so it won't happen again." - ()